Friday, January 21, 2011

The real world is HARD

Hi ladies

how is everyone doing?! Just wanted to give you all a quick update on me. For the most part I am doing okay.... Up until this point I've been dealing with my mom's death in a calm manner. I truly broke down a few times this last few weeks.... Since I've always lived with my mom it was weird getting adjusted to her not being here for me to talk to everyday. After days of trying to figure out what to do and days of discussing whats best for "everyone" The final decision is making everyone happy; but ME! Now I'm very stubborn and I HATE sudden change... i like to know what the hell is going on before hand. So this last minute decision is for me to move back to Texas and live with my brother and sister-n-law. Now  usually this wouldn't seem like a drastic thing BUT i still haven't finished school.... I contacted my school so i cant take my last course at any university/community college in Texas and get it transferred back to my school in California; which still allows me to get my degree!! The only difficult part will come from completing the internship course. I will have to meet with my counselor next week and get that figured out so I can get everything lined up for summer session.

Right now my head is spinning with all that "What Ifs", of the things I could have or should have done so I wouldn't be in such an awkward position right now. I'm a religious person so i know God will work it all out for me... but the part of me not knowing how everything is going to unfold is what frightens me the most!!

The blog will resume in late February or March... I just need a lot of time to think and get adjusted to EVERYTHING. Thanks to all the followers and those who sent their condolences with my last post!

1 comment:

  1. i hope everything works out for the best :) your in my prayers