Friday, January 21, 2011

The real world is HARD

Hi ladies

how is everyone doing?! Just wanted to give you all a quick update on me. For the most part I am doing okay.... Up until this point I've been dealing with my mom's death in a calm manner. I truly broke down a few times this last few weeks.... Since I've always lived with my mom it was weird getting adjusted to her not being here for me to talk to everyday. After days of trying to figure out what to do and days of discussing whats best for "everyone" The final decision is making everyone happy; but ME! Now I'm very stubborn and I HATE sudden change... i like to know what the hell is going on before hand. So this last minute decision is for me to move back to Texas and live with my brother and sister-n-law. Now  usually this wouldn't seem like a drastic thing BUT i still haven't finished school.... I contacted my school so i cant take my last course at any university/community college in Texas and get it transferred back to my school in California; which still allows me to get my degree!! The only difficult part will come from completing the internship course. I will have to meet with my counselor next week and get that figured out so I can get everything lined up for summer session.

Right now my head is spinning with all that "What Ifs", of the things I could have or should have done so I wouldn't be in such an awkward position right now. I'm a religious person so i know God will work it all out for me... but the part of me not knowing how everything is going to unfold is what frightens me the most!!

The blog will resume in late February or March... I just need a lot of time to think and get adjusted to EVERYTHING. Thanks to all the followers and those who sent their condolences with my last post!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

blog hiatus; life just got hard

hi ladies,

As of today  there will be a hiatus on my blog... the one place i could usually come to relieve stress is being put on a back burner. As many of  you know my mother had been sick since like May 2010. We all found out in mid December that the cause of her illness was cancer...... breast cancer to be exact. She fought and beat breast cancer twice before in the early 1990s. She started chemotherapy treatment right before the new year... but on new years eve she went back to the hospital due to breathing difficulties......from that day on she got weaker with each passing day..... on yesterday January 8, 2011 she was not able to fight anymore. I miss my mother dearly and it all seems a blur still. Maybe in a month or 2 will continue with the blog, but right now it don't feel right talking about clothes and makeup..... i love all my followers and those other bloggers i chat with on twitter =) also i was planning a giveaway... that will also be put on hold. So until i return... be safe and stay blessed!! cherish everyday!

**please excuse the typos ; i didnt feel like spell checking =/